Trying To Find Reason.

As I look at myself in the mirror there is a pale short cropped hair girl with gentle and full of love looking eye that resemble the woods, She seems so familiar but to me she is just a alien that is weak and cant do anything.
As I walk to school making sure I don't see anyone I know and I run threw the woods and try to get far away before school ends, As I run I try to escape my thoughts and emotions and trying to lose the ones I call friends. As I sit there hiding from my feelings and thoughts someone always reaches a hand toward me when I'm about to give up....When I stand in a crowd there are giants all around me acting like are older then me while I sit here Tiny and fragile and young while they act like everyone else and go off with their "lovers" Trying to find a reason while you don't have the lock or the key.

Me

I'll hold you close, And when your away I'll regret ever letting you leave.
I'll never say I love out loud, Because I'll regret it if you hurt me.
I'll regret ever loving you if you ever leave me again.
Cause I have found you once but then I lost so many times but I think I have found you for the last time.
Because This Is Unpredictable Me

Selfish Act.

After learning what you did was wrong and selfish.

I felt abandoned.

But you were always so deep in thought, That is what I loved about you besides your gentle hands.

Your selfish act has made me the person I am today. Because you are the distant memory I will always have but there is something I cant get over. Why you left me for your selfish deed....

I felt like you never loved me...but every night it was the same line...

i love you....

i love you.....

i love you......

Sometimes those words hurt more then ever.

Selfish, Selfish, Selfish..Person, How come I ever loved you?

Flying Artists

Every night till the age of ten, I would pretend to fly. I would put my arms at my sides and "fly" around my room and pretend to jump in the air like a ballerina, But at the age of 11, I grew out of the angel stage, Instead of dreams in a deep sleep, I wept.
I couldn't fly, I went to school and filled my mind with stories of the flying artists. But I knew I would never have the wings to sore, But every night I dreamt of flying till my lungs gave out.... But I couldn't fly because I cant let go of the pain that weighs me down so I cant fly with the flying artists. So I'll hid the pain until They come and find me the flying artists will sore above my selfish hands in wait of a shove

Why Rain Makes Me Smile

The gloomy weather makes me smile inside, Because everyone is sadden and I cant sit there and laugh my way through the day knowing someone was sad like me