This World Just Hurts.

You cant blame me, Because I just cant think right when I`m so upset with life.
All the fakes, All the lies, All the...bad people...all the stuff that I`m still scared of. Every night I stay up late and write because this is my impute on life.
I'm just such a Coward that I have to write when I may have the wits and the nerve to tell the media enough. Every Night someone is hurt, someone is killed, someone is raped, some one cries them self to sleep, someone doesn't have that certain one, someone has the same idea`s as me, but doesn't care, Someone sit there reading this and thinking...Shes just nuts, Shes just wants attention...I DON'T!...I want all of you to wake up and feel the way I feel because I'm only one girl in love, with a dream, but I don't have the voice.

A Color.

I`ev never had a favorite color.
Because there enough colors for me to live with.
The rainbow just holds the pure colors...
What about the other ones?
Maybe the ones that have hurt other people. Maybe even killed a few...
What about the ones just searching for their Soul Mate?
Because I'm confused, Maybe Just cause I'm a teen in love...means I don't understand old folks. But I know That You Must Treat Everyone With Respect.
Or am I to young to decide what I should think and what I shouldn't think?
Because I think that most of you, Are FAKES.
Everyone tells me to stop acting like a child...But NO! I`m gonna be me...I`m gonna be my color.

Joy

I find Pure Joy just bringing a smile to someones lost expression.
Seeing that glow in thier eyes...Its somthing I crave..
Somtimes I feel like the Sun sheding light, But then Sometimes I feel like the little rain clouds...because I just cant find my place along with the tea cups and roses.
When I feel like I was gonna stop spreading happiness, Something craved again, and I bottled up my emotions just so he`d never know. Because he made me feel like a little rain cloud lost in the tea cups and roses.
But I still craved smiles and happiness...Along with Pure Joy...
I dont wanna be that little rain cloud...
So Im gonna be A star called Joy.

Last Dance

Last Night was the night for romance.
Its the last dance so hold me tight.
Because I dont think I`ll be coming back for you.
Last dance was the time for minds to filled and cluttered with illusions..
Last Dance means.
Last Dance With Me.

Art

Life After Death
Life After Death.
This Is Art
This Is Art.
Never Wanted This,
All It Was A Dance With Her.
Never Wanted To See It.
Life After Death
Life After Death.
This Is Art
This Is Art.

Cruel

As I sit here biting my nails wondering if he`d never loved me,
But he would never be so cruel to me,
Because I could never get over him, Everyone says I`m so needy,And I know I`m needy....but dose he?
Because I don't wanna be that girl.
Its annoying..
I'm wondering if he could ever just leave me...
I know he would never.

Lovely Crowd.

In every crowd their is girl looking for that special boy.
In her search their is a boy just waving her down....
That night I fought back so many tears..
When I saw him dancing with her...
It felt, empty..
And I don't get it, I already have the one...but him dancing with her...
was heart breaking.

Insecure.

If every first kiss was accounted for...
And every love was taking a toll,
With every kiss I feel so unsure...
With every laugh, I feel so distant..
What do I mean to you?
Because I feel so insecure...
Tell me I`m wrong before I hurt myself more.
I`Ev been stressing out because I'm so insecure...
But I know you love me...

Rebels.

If curiosity killed the cat,
What would be wrong to let curiosity into the hands of the young?
While we press the unknown to the known?
Respect your elders..
While we shove away the new minds....
If the cat can why cant the young ones while they sit in front to the computers all day and rot...
Shoving away knowledge and sticking to the old rules which make no sense.
Ignore all their protests and let them live.

Fairytale life.

As I stare out my window I can see the dragon flying over head, Looking down I can see the ground. Sighing and wishing for the ground.
As I sulk back to my bed and lie just waiting to be saved like the others who were saved from their Fairytale life.

Winter Winds

Its time to bust out those hats and mittens along with the boots , Because its time to forget about the summer sun and the spring rain and fall leaves, Because it is the winter, With the harsh wind and lonely snow.

Serious.

Its kind of a serious relationship. But just thinking of him, I get all giddy.
When hes near, I feel like a child, but when he kisses me, Its a whole new world...
It seems like everything is fine...Even the distance cant, separate us for long.
Its just the beginning.
They say there`s so many fish in the sea, But I found his line and I'm not letting go.
I just cant seem to let him go for a minute.
It just a serious relationship, one that makes me feel like a child.

I Got Nothing.

I have nothing, I gave all I can, But I still want to give.
He just epmty`s me, I just love him all to much,
I feel like a town with a drought.
I just feel like I need to give more, Love just doesn't seem to be enough.

Window.

As I hear my name at my window I run to my window to see my prince.
But no prince.
But lie their in the bed and wait and wait till beauty fades.
Light disappears.
Everyone turns to dust.
But I still wait for my prince.
Because my name was at my window.

Light Rain.

Tonight is the night for them.
The rain quietly erases. their steps into the bush.
The girls all cry.
The rest have left.
No footsteps.
As we lay waiting to be saved.
Something says "Tonight is not the time to sleep, Its time to get rid of your fears and leave like the rest."
Light Rain, Why must you disappear once more?
...We the flowers are welting while the rest...Move on/

Lines

Our smiles fade into the cracked walls,
Blood runs from the sink.
Tears flood from rivers.
Lines slowly tangle our selves in mist.
We become one with pain.
Everything has left...
Even the one who want happiness...
Is this what you wanted?

Smiles.

As our feet dance to the horrid music.
We Smile.
As we become intertwined with love.
As we become monsters to our own love.
We become obsessed with everything the other one dose....
We smile and know that we have danced.
Our futures will never be complete if we just dance the smiles off their faces.

Beauty.

If you are not born with beauty, You shall be given beauty.
Because you are to perfect for my gentle hands to hold you.
Its all just to perfect.
Because he is mine.

Frames

Broken hearts tesslate,

And frame your face with tears,

Because tonite there is no use getting over you.

Becuase your perfect for me, But I dont think its healthy.

And my heart says stay, but my mind is saying GO!

I just cant leave when your this perfect.

Becuase inside this frame, Is my heart.

Theres no use, Because your my perfect Mistake.

Obession.

If you ever had to stuggle for anything...I would give it to in a heartbeat....
When your hands are epmty i would fill them with my little hands, Just so you wouldnt look so alone.
If your eyes were filled with worry and pain, I would close your eyes and tell you stories of love.
If you lips were cold and dead, I`d kiss them to life and warm them with a touch.
If your arms were alone, I`d snuggle into them and listen to your stories.

Paradise.

In Old Folklore They Say Paradise Is Some Where In The Ocean,I guess They Have Never Been In Your Arms Cause Your My Paradise.

A Horrible Mistake.

Just Leave Before You Hurt Me More,
Because You`re Just Clogging Up My Mind.
You Were Just The Greatest Mistake Ever.

Rules.

Theres always a rule..
Like, Dont kiss me like that.
Dont Pity me like that.
Dont treat me like that.
Dont, Just leave.
How many more rules must I have to follow before I just get up and leave you?

Fairytale Love.

I always had to work to get my Romeo....
But this Juliet only did what a girl could do...
Stun him with beauty and brilliance...
And it worked and now Juliet has her Romeo...
I always was called princess, but how can I be called princess?
When I have broken my heart to many times to be called princess...
But I have found my prince charming .
I am the Sun and I have found my Knight and shinning armor...
I was poor, but I have found a love without a price....
And my fairytale Love...is just starting to written, But bits and pieces are missing from the whole.
But the truth may never be brought from the pit.
Because, This Is My Fairytale Love, And I'm Still Writing.

To Him.

Thanks to you. I can finally forget but not forgive The others for making me feel so rotten.

And I have someone who cares and tells me about himself, And all we do is kiss.

And talk about all the rotten things about our past`s.

Justin

Justin, I hope you cry your pretty little hazel eyes.
Cause you should have never let me go.
When your friends told me you were dead.
I thought you really had left me. For two years I was fine.
Until I realized. That you were gone and I was alone.
One night I drew a picture of you sleeping so peacefully in your dirt and maggot filled coffin..
Cause I couldn't live without you.
And I still have that picture and I carry it around so I wont be so weak next time I fall in love.
I hope your feeling bad Cause when I fully realized you left..
I was about to just let go.
But when I found someone else...I thought everything was better until I left hm for you.
I did that to so many guys I was out of control and I wasn't gonna stop.
Cause, I thought I was getting back at you for leaving me.
Until I couldn't do anything to have someone. But now I have someone who keeps me entertained and doesn't bore me and doesn't leave me for weeks at a time because I was out of control.
I hope your crying those lovely eyes of yours...Cause, I never want to see them happy again.

Told

Everyone keeps telling That I need to stop acting like a child,
But how can I stop acting like a child when I never had the time to be a kid?
They say I need to find a job, a lover, But when Im just a kid....
Shouldnt I do it myself?
Becuase your just ruining me more.
Cuz` I know what Im doing.

LongTerm.

I dont want a long term relationship.
Cause im on the go again.
I want a sweet and short Love.
Not a few months or a few years, I want weeks.
I dont want to cling I just want you gone.

Not The Same.

It dosent matter how many groups of people I put myself in,
I`ll never be the same, Cause I know Im more...weak, then the others.
It dosent matter how many friends i have,
I`ll never fit in. Cause I see things differently.
It dosent matter how many smiles and waves i get,
I`ll never be able to express the same feelings
It dosent matter how many times I love..
Cause you dont care anymore.

Valentine.

Now that the day is getting closer..
I have no one to hold closer.
Since I pushed him away..
He throws me away..
As I told him I didn't Love him..
He tells me the same..
How come I'm never happy?
How come hes the only one that's happy?
Who is he to bring me back to the surface?
Who is he to put where I am?
He is mine...
My only Valentine.

Gorefull Love

As I spill my blood and guts and love onto a page just for him

and all he talks about is how he just doesn't want me.

As I cry my eyes out and tell him to come back.

He just looks at me and walks away.

As I yell at him and scream telling him I love him.

He just ingores me and says I need to be alone because Im to much work.

As I run to him and tell him I need him and I depended on his love.

He just pushes me away and hurt me more.

As I spill my blood and guts in front of him..

He just stares.

Mothers Life.

I see how mother always tired to do what was best for me..
But everytime she tried to find happiness...
She always had to be hurt.
Even when she thought she had it good.
She was wrong.
All of her dreams flew away when I was born,
She says im her life.
But would it hurt to know...I dont wanna be her life and her all.
I want to be away from her.
I want to leave this behind and give up and live somewhere dark and raining
without her.

Everyword.

Everyword hurts...
And the ending hurts more then the middle wear he stabs his heart with the words he could have told me his problems....
The word goodbye hurts more everytime...
Goodbye...
Bye..
Bye bye!
It hurts,
Farewell.
It just to formal...
And it hurts all to much.

Suicide?

I dont want him to go.....
This world is too cruel....
I hate this....
He`s gone....
Everyone I hold close always vainsh....
I dont wanna write...
Its to empty....
I dont wanna love...
Im just to weak...

My Abyss

In my abyss you sit there with your hands toward me smiling, I want to run toward you but,
I grab myself and throw me away.
Your Gonna be Mine!
But here...it useless....
I wont let you...
Because I'm weak.
In my abyss...its dark....

Ur No GoOd

What are men good for?
Uh lets say thier my most feared Nightmare...
I dont wanna be left alone tonite.
Because the Boggie man is coming back into my dreams.
Some nights I wish I had a Valentine but
I`ve worked so hard just to be me.
I dont wanna be the lil` dove anymore I wanna be me.
Men are good for pain.
And fears.

Birthday For The Dead.

It is getting close to you birthday Honey,
What would you like?
Oh I forgot!
How about some dirt and maggots?!
Huh?
You Loved That Stupid Gun More Then Me.
You loved that stupid game!
More then me?
Well, You Messed with the wrong Little heart.
I said I`m Sorry.
Why wont you leave me alone?!
Just I wanted to say was...
I love you.