Can They See Me Now?

My head hurts because I have my thoughts so tightly held.
I hold onto you closer then before as I look up from where I sit, Everyone looks at me.
Can they see how lost I am? Or can they see the pain?

Afloat

Some thing always catches me afloat and alone.
I'm alone again without you sight isn't as important
Math is a hum
I'm a mess.
Your perfection.

Mind Bind.

My mind is in a bind as my body curls my mind uncurls around you.
Tick-Tock Click-Clock goes my thoughts my life is unwavering to you.
Only whispering lies.

Alone

When I'm alone,I become a shy little thing, I become someone that's not me.
When I'm with you, I'm always true.
When I'm true, You smile.
When I'm alone I can never stop thinking of you. Your the bright side of the moon and I`m the dark side.
Because I'll never hurt you by telling you how I feel when I'm down.
There's always a struggle to obtain you.
The coals in the stove always seem to hurt more then being without you. Because I never knew what alone was until I leave your arms at night.
As we dance threw the night I realize I could of had you along time ago.

Swans Love.

Your so Divine I cant do anything against it.
In my dark corner I weep but you come shining like the sun and take my hand all so gentle and shove me into the light were all the ones I love are.
But your not there. Your never where I need you to be.
As I sulk back to my dark and shaded corner . Not knowing if you`d ever come back to me.
We are two different people and theres something about that lifts me from the dark and into your arms every time.
I cant get over how perfect you are.
Your my sun to my lonely planet where I rule with an iron fist.
You sat there and pleaded me into not killing the ones that had teased me.
There I sat gazing at you when you napped.
But theres always something about how the swans fly and leaves, it always bothers me when you leave. I see your distant shadow leave and I know your not coming back for me this time..
My swans leave me to love nothing but the memories of you.

The Mirror

All night long she stares in the mirror,
All night long she wishes love wasn't just a lie,
All night long she dreams of her own fairytale,
Where her father wouldnt beat her, where her mother wouldnt drink, Where her brother wouldnt touch her,
All night long she wishes she could be free.
Only the mirror knows her secrets, because, she lives in the mirror now...
The mirror has taken her to safety but only has brought her more pain.
She can hear her mothers cries and her father beating her brother,
All night long she wishes she didn't leave them, because they had some good times..
Before all of this.

To Night.

To night, Don`t leave me, because I don't want to cry, for this night is the night of his last birthday, the day he left me,
To night, I need to fall asleep in your arms so I don't fall asleep alone,
I have been looking for a friend and he has fallen asleep, and left me,
Don't leave me, Because you scare the tears away,
I don't want to be alone, For to night is when all the pain crashes down..
Don't leave me....to night.

I know how to hurt you.

I know what makes you tick,
I know what makes you fall,
I know what makes you weep,
But I`ll never say those words to you.
Because I need you now more then ever.
I Know what makes you smile,
I know what makes you laugh,
I know what makes you love me.
But I`ll Always say those to you.
Because your the only one to me.

Love Birds

Love, Love, Love that's all I can give you..
Love, Love,Love I will never let you go..
Love, Love,Love your so mine..
Love, Love, Love...such a simple word but it means all to much...
Love Love Love birds.
That's what we are.
We`ll sit on a branch and just chirp about love love love...

Capture the figures

There is music,
But the figures of my life,
Don`t move to the beat,
The ceilings stretch forever and capture me in my deep thoughts of what to say next for you to enjoy..
Life is just another pebble to the mountain
Frogs chirp their hymns while we suffer from the bore...
Only if they could sing my song..
Now we sit. Now we eat. Now we sleep.Now we begin with life.
Nothing is ever the same.
First impression you can never shake off.
It doesn't matter what I say or I do...
I`ll never be able to capture your hearts.

Remarks.

No longer will I stand up to your remarks...
I'm breaking down once again...
I cant stand this growing pain...
No longer will I be your friend.
Just let me go..Before I lose it.

Fragments.

Now that I know so many words I can scorn you with them...
Even as the Morin dawns many of us begin our journey south to the warm and away from the crowd..
I`ll be there around seven.
I`ll count the seconds...
I`ll miss you more...
But I`ll always love the shoreline in the fog as it whips my hair around and covers me in its wake...
The redwoods have little raindrops lets from the angels crying over head..
The waves are always in a rush to hold onto the sand...
Life is such an odd beauty...
Its so destructive but stunning..
I`ll always be your little dancer because You always know how to hold me close...
I only thought I could hold you for awhile but your not letting go now are you?
Only simple thoughts...I`ll always be your little one..

Where I`ll be

You will always find me where the waves are too loud for my music to wash out the waves.
When the music up and the weather is warm and the tide is in...
You`ll find me there.

Emmy.

Oh, I`ll never understand her and her obsessions. But at least I`ll be with her along the way..
La La La La La
Oh I`ll never get how she moves
Around each bump and each curve gracefully, but never alike the rest
Always making a mess of things and fixing them in a snap.
La La La La..
No One Saw Her Coming...
Shes the new show in town...
La La La La
Oh, I`ll never understand how she ticks and how she works...
Oh she`ll never be the girl to wear the dresses,
Oh she`ll be the Emmy.

Hide And Seek

I see your shadow lingering around the corners...
I know you follow me everywhere just so you know Im safe...
I glance back at you...but you always dissaper before I can say...
Hide And Seek..
Your shoes lack the sound...
Your hands lack my hands to fill.
I only wanna dissaper with you..
Hide And Seek...
Will let me play hide and go seek with you this time?

Fools Game

The screams have driven me..Mad..
I feel like such a fool with rocks stuffed in my pockets till they cant fit..
I feel like such...such...a clinger...
Its a fools game...I keep telling myself that I'm not so I wont fade into the back round again...
Everyone tells me I`m the hopeless romantic..
But that's not me...I get caught up in other peoples romances..
And always forget about the one I love...
But never will I fall in love with them...
Because its a fools game I play..
And you play it with me..

Red

Its all red when i look up...
Your face is flushed Just cause I had just kissed you..
Your nose is red just cause the winter winds were nibbling' at your nose..
Your eyes are red because she had just left you...
To me all the walls are red and screaming...
In each nightmare...its only covered in red...
In each nightmare...each night you say "Sweet dreams" But I don't dream...
You say you`ll come and rescue me from these awful nightmare.....
Everything is red...Everything has always been red for me..
Its a Horrid color to begin with.

Oh I should of Listened,

Oh I should of heeded your pleas...
I should have become a better woman for you...
But I missed Oh so much..
But you Oh to far for my cries to hear.
Oh deary Its all over.
War filled tears..
Eyes filled with love..
Hands filled with water..
Ears filled with lies...
Brains hunger...
Oh I should Listened...
And lets just stay friends..

Everything Is Him.

Everyone has a favorite...but I only have an obession...
Every thought is him
Every smile is him
Every breath
Every word is him
Everyone has an obession...
But I have...him.

My Wind Boy.

My lover is as busy as the sun. Always bringing light to everyone...
My boy is as distant as the wind..always going but comes back to me...
My smile is his...always when I`m with him...
My everything was him, but to have someone be your everything....They only take it away and leave you with nothing...
My wind boy...Your always distant but your only mine for now...

Something Dark

There`s something awaiting in the shadows for me...
Waiting till my walls fall...
When I`m at my weakest...
It always staring at me when I walk to the school and sleep in my room...
It dosent like it...
He see`s things and says "The end is near and there`s nothing left for us.."
But very quietly...Whispers..."There is time for greed and time for pain but now is not the time to panic...When all hope is lost...It will be back.."
Something dark...

I could of said...

There`s somethings I wished I had said to you..but I couldnt even say something without crying over you...
I could have said so many things but no...
I never did.

Same Old Tune.

You can always listen to different music...But you`re always gonna go to that orginal band that caught your ear and always rings the bell..

Far Away.

When I see people walking down the streets holding hands...
I reach for your hand, But when I realize...
Your so far away...
When I`m feeling sad and all alone..
I wanna ride my bike to your house and just forget everything....
Your so far away...
But I`m not done loving you....
And I never will be alone, because in my mind you sit there besides me..
But at dinner I always look at the lonely empty seat where you would sit..
I would put my hand under the table to hold your hand...
Your so far away...but I will always love you.

I could be wrong.

I could be mean and ignore you for days at a time.
I can say the right words to break your heart.
But I wont,
But I could be wrong. Who knows?
I could have kissed your lips more and savored every little thing.
I could fall asleep in your arms every night.
But, I'm right this time.
Because I could be wrong.

Sugar and Spices But Nothing Nice.

Add a little dash of fake lashes...fix your hair just right.
Add those little tears, tremble that lip...
We know your just a fake, You say your in love....Your just getting what you want..
Attention..
Everyone hates you. We all talk behind your back.
We all know that your not nice...
Your just...A fake.
Get a grip.
Add a heart, friends,smarts...
And you have a girl.

Holding Onto,

During those harsh winter nights, He would hold me to him and sob about the kids at school.
All those nights where he would throw his life away behind my back,
All those times he said he`d be back, but he left for weeks at a time.
All those red scarfs I made you, just so you wouldn't miss me when you were gone...
But did you leave to remember you by? All I remember is your hands holding me, your tears on my sweater, the way you smiled...The way you held me up when I was young...
But now, I closed myself off, because I cant hold onto you anymore, I found all those red scarfs under your side of the bed...with someone Else's clothes...
I still wonder if everything you said was true...but I'm not so young and careless, because you should have held onto me like before.

Tea Cups.

He thinks life is hard, She thinks life is about living.
He wants to get lost in a tea cup, No crying over spilled milk, but what can you do when its gone?
She knows he wants to disappear but how can I let him go so he can disappear?
They both want to end and begin, but they wont confront their fears.
Cobblestones and teacups nothing in common but have the same idea`s.

Days.

In these past few days, I dont have many words to say anymore, So I don`t know if I`m going to contuine....In these past few days I have found, Somethings wont stay the same....To me change is fine...But this change..Is no good.

Grace,

Theres No use getting over your beauty and your kisses because every time you kiss me, My world starts spinning, I wish I could hold you closer but I don't want you thinking I`m clinging.
I just cant get over how perfect and loyal you are,
Most men would ditch me for some other pretty girl, But you`ll stay by my side and kiss until I cant see straight...Because I love all to much, Me next to you, I look tiny and weak, but you look strong and buff.
And I feel so protected with you. With your grace, I fee so complete.

This Love Just...Hurts.

How could you say that I never have loved you?
Because I did love you, I have loved you. I am loving you.
And I could never get over you.
All those words state the past but now is present and future....
And no one misses cupid...But I always miss you.
Your like a gift...everyday.
But your more to me then anyone else...
And how can you say this love just hurts?
Because I`m trying. To make things better.