Holding Onto,

During those harsh winter nights, He would hold me to him and sob about the kids at school.
All those nights where he would throw his life away behind my back,
All those times he said he`d be back, but he left for weeks at a time.
All those red scarfs I made you, just so you wouldn't miss me when you were gone...
But did you leave to remember you by? All I remember is your hands holding me, your tears on my sweater, the way you smiled...The way you held me up when I was young...
But now, I closed myself off, because I cant hold onto you anymore, I found all those red scarfs under your side of the bed...with someone Else's clothes...
I still wonder if everything you said was true...but I'm not so young and careless, because you should have held onto me like before.