I can't

I cant erase the pain.
I cant do anything to make up for what I did.
But all I know, is I was hurting more then you ever could of.
I have lost the blood, I have felt that emptiness. I have lost to lives of the ones I had loved. But I'm here now. I just wish You'd beat me to a pulp and I could maybe forgive myself.
I'm here now because I have been wandering around looking for you.
I can't do anything but I can wish I had done something.