Saturday, June 19, 2010

Japanese Man With A Heart

There is a man, On the corner with a tea shop, All Asian and small.
Tidy stacks of newspapers from two weeks.
One snowy day I had found this tiny little shop, Walking in the small old man got up and asked me what I'd like. I said whatever was on the hand. He nodded and asked me my name and he sat me down in a Comfy chair worn down by people sitting in it.
'Not many people today?'
'No, Many people do not care for my tea anymore.' he said with a frown.
He told me his life story, He told me about the camps and how it killed his mother and sister, taken by sickness. His father was a man full of pride and he died of starvation because his pride was to great to eat American man food. He was raised by Irish people who talked about their homeland, Of Ireland and He said it was his dream to take them home. But as he did, they died of old age after they had gotten to their old home back, He said they died from happiness.
It was getting late by then. I told him I had to go and he nodded i asked if I could come back and he nodded.
I stopped by everyday learning more and more about tea and the old man, I never knew his name
but he called me "Susumu- Suzume" I asked what it meant and he laugh and say another time.
One month later he was on his death bed, I was his only "Family" His children left for America and his love of his life died a week earlier. He said 'She's calling me to her....'
But he rested his hand over mine and said, 'Susumu- Suzume, Its means Progressing Sparrow...I'ev watched you grow up and now.." The machine beeped and doctor's and nurses came rushing in and pushed me aside.
A week later I got a phone call saying that I had now owned the 'Otoko To Kokoro' Wich meant,
'Man With A Heart'
[Short Story I wrote for school]

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Nick..

I can't understand why you hurt so much.
I don't get why your such an obsession.
Why can't I let you go.
Your my catchy tune that I can't get out of my mind.
Your such a treasure that I have imagined all the wars were fought for your love.
Why are you still here?
What can I do to forget the pain?

I am Human

I wasn't made to break,
I had every word planned to say to you.
I wasn't made to fear,
I have everyone to help me.
I wasn't made to be angry.
I have the hands to heal not to hurt.
I was made to love.
I can give it back in so many ways..
Not just to hurt.
Because.
I.
Am.
Human.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Selfish me.

Us humans are so selfish, We can never let anything go, Like the things we hold so dear.
Even after death we still hold onto them.
Even when they leave us....We can never forget their face.....Even when it hurts so much,

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Younger.

Don't wipe the tears, Don't fix the pain, let me live you're suffocating me with your love I'm not trying to hurt you.

Friday, June 4, 2010

Food for Thought.

Empty cat dish, where I'd watch them gobble up their food.
But the cats meow is a song to me and the loss of hope is calling.
Writing cursive is a pain..

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Downfall

I think I'm seeing the downfall, Of the queen, I think of my mother as the Queen and Him as the king, he drinks she shrinks,
He yells, She hollers...
My life sinks between the cracks....I'm to small to fill her foot steps, The little princess cant step up to take the crown....As i gather stones looking at them and identifying them as people in my life. As i stumble upon a smaller stone.
This is me. The beautiful one is mother.
the ugly one is him and I shall throw him out to sea so no one can see him every again.
I believe I'm seeing the downfall of the queen.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

"Kitten"

How you sat on his lap and he held you to him.....I was jealous, He's mine... when we sat at the restaurant and he asked to come with him, To watch her flirt which is a bad flirt while i sat there watching you absorb it...I rolled my spaghetti around my fork so many times you couldn't see the fork. How come you don't see my feelings towards you?....I thought you knew and felt the same obviously....You only see me as a weakling that stumbles and stutters around men. A fear that I cant hide... When I'm in your arms and as you hugged me in friendly way even though I was scared of you...I never wanted to leave your arms....the warmth was oh so nice...
Men-Phobia...that's what you said i had but you called me "My Lil' Scared Kitten" that's how I got the name of "Kitten" That's when I had found my spot in your heart....Your little Kitten....
But she glares at me threw her thick rimmed glasses....and gives me a cold smile as she tower above me. At school I linger around your classes hoping I can catch your eye. Or catch a smile, Maybe even a hug or a 'Hey kitten" and I'll blush and run off. But your giant stares me down and sends chills up my spine now, I don't linger by your classes...I'm scared she'll hurt me like how your hurting me....