Lost again

I have lost myself, Amongst the broken glass and the warped floor boards.
I thought I would find you, Somewhere here. But there was only bones on the floor where I left you.
I came back to find myself or to be myself. But I came back and you had changed.
I thought you could help. I feel like a duckling fighting to stay above the water.
But hate and pain and misery are tugging at my legs. I called out for you but you never came. I want to tell you my problems, But you never helped.
I became different because I thought you would love me .