I am Human

I wasn't made to break,

I had every word planned to say to you.

I wasn't made to fear,

I have everyone to help me.

I wasn't made to be angry.

I have the hands to heal not to hurt.

I was made to love.

I can give it back in so many ways..

Not just to hurt.

Because.

I.

Am.

Human.

Selfish me.

Us humans are so selfish, We can never let anything go, Like the things we hold so dear.
Even after death we still hold onto them.
Even when they leave us....We can never forget their face.....Even when it hurts so much,

Younger.

Don't wipe the tears, Don't fix the pain, let me live you're suffocating me with your love I'm not trying to hurt you.

Food for Thought.

Empty cat dish, where I'd watch them gobble up their food.

But the cats meow is a song to me and the loss of hope is calling.

Writing cursive is a pain..

Downfall

I think I'm seeing the downfall, Of the queen, I think of my mother as the Queen and Him as the king, he drinks she shrinks,
He yells, She hollers...
My life sinks between the cracks....I'm to small to fill her foot steps, The little princess cant step up to take the crown....As i gather stones looking at them and identifying them as people in my life. As i stumble upon a smaller stone.
This is me. The beautiful one is mother.
the ugly one is him and I shall throw him out to sea so no one can see him every again.
I believe I'm seeing the downfall of the queen.

"Kitten"

How you sat on his lap and he held you to him.....I was jealous, He's mine... when we sat at the restaurant and he asked to come with him, To watch her flirt which is a bad flirt while i sat there watching you absorb it...I rolled my spaghetti around my fork so many times you couldn't see the fork. How come you don't see my feelings towards you?....I thought you knew and felt the same obviously....You only see me as a weakling that stumbles and stutters around men. A fear that I cant hide... When I'm in your arms and as you hugged me in friendly way even though I was scared of you...I never wanted to leave your arms....the warmth was oh so nice...
Men-Phobia...that's what you said i had but you called me "My Lil' Scared Kitten" that's how I got the name of "Kitten" That's when I had found my spot in your heart....Your little Kitten....
But she glares at me threw her thick rimmed glasses....and gives me a cold smile as she tower above me. At school I linger around your classes hoping I can catch your eye. Or catch a smile, Maybe even a hug or a 'Hey kitten" and I'll blush and run off. But your giant stares me down and sends chills up my spine now, I don't linger by your classes...I'm scared she'll hurt me like how your hurting me....