Once more

Lets not dwell on past, I spent my days resenting you, Now your back, I dont think I can do this Once more.

My Angel

You sit upon my window sill, Your angry expression darken that corner of my room.
All the lights are off, but you still light up the night.
You tucked me in and kissed my hair and left.
Every night I would toss and turn until I felt your possessive gaze upon me while I slept.
Sometimes I could hear you crying, I could hear you scream, But you have been gone for two years. What did I do to deserve this My angel?

Lost again

I have lost myself, Amongst the broken glass and the warped floor boards.
I thought I would find you, Somewhere here. But there was only bones on the floor where I left you.
I came back to find myself or to be myself. But I came back and you had changed.
I thought you could help. I feel like a duckling fighting to stay above the water.
But hate and pain and misery are tugging at my legs. I called out for you but you never came. I want to tell you my problems, But you never helped.
I became different because I thought you would love me .

My Hero

My hero is that lady who stands between the dark and light, My hero is the man who stands between earth and water.
These were the ones, I looked up to.
My Hero is the people who stand where the sky meets the land.
(tid bit,)

Again...?

Again, Yes, Again I have gained that power.
Again, No Again I have lost that power.
Now, I want you more then ever.
Again, I have lost that power to call you mine.
Again, I am leaving you behind

I wish

I wish I had that pride that let you show your real self,
I wish I could be like you,
But what we did makes me want to scream, How could we have done this to you?
How many more of you will we hurt? For our actions, I would like to Personally, Apologize for what they did to you.
And I will take that to the grave with me till I feel the equality of us.

Pebble Pebble

Pebble Pebble, You think your nothing.
Your the earth I tried to wash away,
Your the scab that has left a scar
Your the tear that turned into a pillow soaked with love
Hope, Hopeful, Hopeless.
I cant get enough of you.
I told you goodbye.
I told you to leave
Bored, Boring,Stupid,Nothing
Your Empty Like the Cups in the sink
I'm empty like the dishwasher that cleaned the cups.
The house is empty and I stick out like a soar thumb,
Believe,Believed,Forgotten, Forgiven
I believe I told you sorry.
I believed you said sorry.
I forgotten every moment of your existence.
I have forgiven you.

Friends...?

When you walk up to my door tears in you're eyes. I scramble up to in my bunny slippers and seat you to the worn out-over loved-soaked with tears chair and but the kettle on. When you burst out crying I know she got to you again, I pat you on the back and the kettle starts screaming insults of gas that once was water in the kettle. I pour you a glass of hot water and a bit of lemon. Like when we were kids you'd drink hot water and a bit of lemon and hum lullaby's to get you to sleep but now you don't hum you just cry.
You hug me and ask. "Your always gonna be my best friend right?" I nod forgetting everything you did to me. Brainwash, Order me around, Hit..... Was I ever you're best friend?
As I watch you leave, I know you're not gonna come back.
Friends...Is this how we all end?

Leaving me?

I marvel how you yell at me while you're eyes are screaming Love me!

How can I turn away from your abuse?

How can I ever leave you like I am about to....

I am you're doormat... Just wipe you're feet before you enter

I whimper when you give me the look

I wanna hide in my toy box like I did when I was little and wait for cousin Leo to pick me up and tell me to be brave.

I wanna run away. When you try to act all, different. You hurt me more then you hurt your self.

Of course I've seen the scars on your arms.

They make me worry, I think you can leave me any moment, You think your helping everyone else you're not helping me.

How can I trust my skates when they aren't sharped?

How can I climb when my rocks are wiggly?

Why do I keep coming back to you?

Because, I want you to know I will be there for you...

But I don't know how much longer I can take being a doormat.

Lost

I never thought you would impact my life. But you did.

You were the joker card and I had fallen for your tricks.

Your the pawn and I'm the bishop and in your game you played me so.

I was lost in your arms and your eyes. You had me lost inside you and I couldn't find a way out.

Horrible Thing

To me your the monster who hunts little girls hearts and eats them with the worst manners.

You are the mold on the carpet from the cat puke.

You believe in true love the stuff from books.

I have to hunt you down before you become a horrible thing.

Before you hurt me.

Your the thing I'm always thinking about...

I can't put a finger on why your so important to me.

But I must kill you, You Horrible thing.

Horrible thing that feeds on my pain and fills me up with grief.

Horrible Thing I Might Actually Love You.

Japanese Man With A Heart

There is a man, On the corner with a tea shop, All Asian and small.

Tidy stacks of newspapers from two weeks.

One snowy day I had found this tiny little shop, Walking in the small old man got up and asked me what I'd like. I said whatever was on the hand. He nodded and asked me my name and he sat me down in a Comfy chair worn down by people sitting in it.

'Not many people today?'

'No, Many people do not care for my tea anymore.' he said with a frown.

He told me his life story, He told me about the camps and how it killed his mother and sister, taken by sickness. His father was a man full of pride and he died of starvation because his pride was to great to eat American man food. He was raised by Irish people who talked about their homeland, Of Ireland and He said it was his dream to take them home. But as he did, they died of old age after they had gotten to their old home back, He said they died from happiness.

It was getting late by then. I told him I had to go and he nodded i asked if I could come back and he nodded.

I stopped by everyday learning more and more about tea and the old man, I never knew his name

but he called me "Susumu- Suzume" I asked what it meant and he laugh and say another time.

One month later he was on his death bed, I was his only "Family" His children left for America and his love of his life died a week earlier. He said 'She's calling me to her....'

But he rested his hand over mine and said, 'Susumu- Suzume, Its means Progressing Sparrow...I'ev watched you grow up and now.." The machine beeped and doctor's and nurses came rushing in and pushed me aside.

A week later I got a phone call saying that I had now owned the 'Otoko To Kokoro' Wich meant,

'Man With A Heart'

[Short Story I wrote for school]

Nick..

I can't understand why you hurt so much.

I don't get why your such an obsession.

Why can't I let you go.

Your my catchy tune that I can't get out of my mind.

Your such a treasure that I have imagined all the wars were fought for your love.

Why are you still here?

What can I do to forget the pain?

I am Human

I wasn't made to break,

I had every word planned to say to you.

I wasn't made to fear,

I have everyone to help me.

I wasn't made to be angry.

I have the hands to heal not to hurt.

I was made to love.

I can give it back in so many ways..

Not just to hurt.

Because.

I.

Am.

Human.

Selfish me.

Us humans are so selfish, We can never let anything go, Like the things we hold so dear.
Even after death we still hold onto them.
Even when they leave us....We can never forget their face.....Even when it hurts so much,

Younger.

Don't wipe the tears, Don't fix the pain, let me live you're suffocating me with your love I'm not trying to hurt you.

Food for Thought.

Empty cat dish, where I'd watch them gobble up their food.

But the cats meow is a song to me and the loss of hope is calling.

Writing cursive is a pain..

Downfall

I think I'm seeing the downfall, Of the queen, I think of my mother as the Queen and Him as the king, he drinks she shrinks,
He yells, She hollers...
My life sinks between the cracks....I'm to small to fill her foot steps, The little princess cant step up to take the crown....As i gather stones looking at them and identifying them as people in my life. As i stumble upon a smaller stone.
This is me. The beautiful one is mother.
the ugly one is him and I shall throw him out to sea so no one can see him every again.
I believe I'm seeing the downfall of the queen.

"Kitten"

How you sat on his lap and he held you to him.....I was jealous, He's mine... when we sat at the restaurant and he asked to come with him, To watch her flirt which is a bad flirt while i sat there watching you absorb it...I rolled my spaghetti around my fork so many times you couldn't see the fork. How come you don't see my feelings towards you?....I thought you knew and felt the same obviously....You only see me as a weakling that stumbles and stutters around men. A fear that I cant hide... When I'm in your arms and as you hugged me in friendly way even though I was scared of you...I never wanted to leave your arms....the warmth was oh so nice...
Men-Phobia...that's what you said i had but you called me "My Lil' Scared Kitten" that's how I got the name of "Kitten" That's when I had found my spot in your heart....Your little Kitten....
But she glares at me threw her thick rimmed glasses....and gives me a cold smile as she tower above me. At school I linger around your classes hoping I can catch your eye. Or catch a smile, Maybe even a hug or a 'Hey kitten" and I'll blush and run off. But your giant stares me down and sends chills up my spine now, I don't linger by your classes...I'm scared she'll hurt me like how your hurting me....

Trying To Find Reason.

As I look at myself in the mirror there is a pale short cropped hair girl with gentle and full of love looking eye that resemble the woods, She seems so familiar but to me she is just a alien that is weak and cant do anything.
As I walk to school making sure I don't see anyone I know and I run threw the woods and try to get far away before school ends, As I run I try to escape my thoughts and emotions and trying to lose the ones I call friends. As I sit there hiding from my feelings and thoughts someone always reaches a hand toward me when I'm about to give up....When I stand in a crowd there are giants all around me acting like are older then me while I sit here Tiny and fragile and young while they act like everyone else and go off with their "lovers" Trying to find a reason while you don't have the lock or the key.

Me

I'll hold you close, And when your away I'll regret ever letting you leave.
I'll never say I love out loud, Because I'll regret it if you hurt me.
I'll regret ever loving you if you ever leave me again.
Cause I have found you once but then I lost so many times but I think I have found you for the last time.
Because This Is Unpredictable Me

Selfish Act.

After learning what you did was wrong and selfish.

I felt abandoned.

But you were always so deep in thought, That is what I loved about you besides your gentle hands.

Your selfish act has made me the person I am today. Because you are the distant memory I will always have but there is something I cant get over. Why you left me for your selfish deed....

I felt like you never loved me...but every night it was the same line...

i love you....

i love you.....

i love you......

Sometimes those words hurt more then ever.

Selfish, Selfish, Selfish..Person, How come I ever loved you?

Flying Artists

Every night till the age of ten, I would pretend to fly. I would put my arms at my sides and "fly" around my room and pretend to jump in the air like a ballerina, But at the age of 11, I grew out of the angel stage, Instead of dreams in a deep sleep, I wept.
I couldn't fly, I went to school and filled my mind with stories of the flying artists. But I knew I would never have the wings to sore, But every night I dreamt of flying till my lungs gave out.... But I couldn't fly because I cant let go of the pain that weighs me down so I cant fly with the flying artists. So I'll hid the pain until They come and find me the flying artists will sore above my selfish hands in wait of a shove

Why Rain Makes Me Smile

The gloomy weather makes me smile inside, Because everyone is sadden and I cant sit there and laugh my way through the day knowing someone was sad like me

My Wonderworld

My hair is made of golden finches,
My arms are the sway of the wind.
My eyes are the stars,
and when i sing elves and trolls come to play together.
Fairies linger at the edge of the trees.
The deers prance around in circles around me and the predators watch from the side line.
As a rat slips in and to disturb this moments bliss.
Picking up the rat and kissing his nose
Everything has its part here.
As the leaves giggle from the funny sight of the sun rising. The trees are in there deadly slumber.
The grass sways in the distant...The stream gurgles from below

Fainting On The Track

All I could remember was:
I was running the 400 sprint, I was in first place until the 200,
I tripped once, then it went black then I could remember seeing the ground come closer and closer till it was in my face.
It went black.
The stars twinkle so nicely.
No don't shake me. No don't wake me.
No don't wake me up.
Everyone is so happy here...
I'm only dreaming.
When I opened my eyes pain shot up my leg and i started screaming.
That's when everyone else was at the finish line.
I didn't know what hurt worse. Me not able to do the 400 hundred or the pain in my ankle.
I sat there and cried, I was so upset and in pain, I couldn't see straight.
I would never tell anyone else about everyone smiling...Because I don't want them to worry.

I just cant put up with it.

I'm at the Verge of tears.
My heart is so torn.
I feel as all my barriers have been torn like the side of buildings.
Every night I dream about a life with me happy,
But love isn't answer C, Love is answer D, something I can always hide, but its always something that hurts more then I need it to be.
Answer A, has the easy way out, but I picked B, Deal with it. I cant always put up with the pain, but the rain helps me. the sound is so heart wrenching, when there are sunny days, I'm upset, when it rains I'm happier then a dove in love.
But today it rains and I cant put up with the love.

Jealous Yet?

When I walk with him, and I see you, I grab his hand and wink at you,
When I see you starring at me I quickly kiss his check and he kisses me back.
When you try talking to me, I ignore you and run off to him.
I only want you to hurt as much as I did.
If you want me back, Good luck Cause I am as gone as Mondays garbage.
According to you. I am Garbage, But to him...I'm everything.
Jealous yet?

I'd Help You? Never.

I would of said no, But I hit the button and said yes.
Just Cause you tried to kiss me doesn't mean you can own me.
I could of held your hand for longer, but you creeper,Were staring at other girls.
You would lean over my shoulder and the bad times would roll in my mind so easily.
I loved you back then but now, you hurt more then ever.
If you asked for help, I'd Gladly never thought about helping you.

Heart Breaker

They call me the Kiss and Ditch,

But I found a boy I like.

And he's gonna stay.

Because He treats me better then you.

He's on my side for most things, Unlike you.

He always has a smile, So much more cuter then yours.

I'm Not A Heart Breaker Anymore. I learned to be so much better,

I learned from you.

Because You Showed Me What Heart Break Was.

Rember Me?

In my mind the song plays over and over .
The play is:
A girl runs threw the rain crying after the part where he leaves her.
She throws her umbrella to the ground at his door and then it cuts to the part of their childhood and it shows them playing and holding the umbrella and it goes on till the part where he leaves her with their childhood umbrella.
As he walks out of his house the next morring he See's the umbrella and looks around and then starts crying.
The TV screen says
3 MONTHS LATER
It goes to the part where she is buying a umbrella and a heart shaped one catches her eyes she tells the clerk she wants the umbrella with the heart on it. its late at night and it starts to rain she puts the umbrella between her and the rain and trys to rember where her studio is.
A man walks into her view as she looks at her phone . She looks up and there is a man standing there staring at her as all the people walk by her in there gray colorless coats and umbrellas, As she stands out , Heart shaped umbrella and her rain boots. She walks by the man and she holds the umbrella out to him and says "I don't think you should be out here without a umbrella you goof." and she smiles at him.
"Don't you remember me?" he says standing next to her.
"Nope, You Are A Complete Stranger, But I Forgot My Way Home, So Will You Help Me? I Live On Aster Street Studio 9. Do you know where that is?"
He looks at her in pain and regret for leaving her all alone in the rain, He heard rumors that something so traumatic happened to her that she went into a coma, but when she came back..She had forgotten everything....As he looked at his shoes "I think I know where it is." He said.
"Whats your name? Mines Aimee." she said to her stranger.
"My name is Josh."
"Oh look there is my Studio, Thank you for walking me home."
As she walked up to her door he whispered.
"Don't Forget me again."

Late Night Rain

Every night a little voice in my head tells me to wait out in the rain, As I skim the horizon,nothing but the rain ,cars,lights, no people, Just me and my umbrella.

I give up and walk home, another voice tells me to turn around, and I have a feeling someone will be waiting at the corner for me. But as I look. No one is there.

Every night I do this.

When shes at her worst, She wont hurt you. She'll just fuss.

Maybe a fear tears late at night, Just maybe.

She'll be found in the rain.

Dreading The Love.

Love was in the sea that night,

Where all the broken hearts drifted to, And now I sit here cleaning them up and fixing them, Putting them on a self, and wait for takers.

She was the cutest thing on the block,

And he was much older, she loved him, he only used her.

Every night when her lights were on, you could hear her sobs threw the cracks in the wall, now...it hurts her to love. Shes Dreading the thought, because her love was to big for her lover.

I did this?

I did this? I wrote these poems of nothing? Have I always been so deep in thought...all the time?
Why cant I be shallow minded and a teen...Why do I have to be so caught up in my greedy thoughts? Sometimes I cant stand myself. Sometimes I wish I was never born...Sometimes..All it is..nothing.

All the cool kids.

I know if I bring you to my school, You'd be sucked into their crowd.
But I want you all to myself because I'm greedy like that.
I've been treated like a princess my whole life, And now that I found you I never want to let you go.

So Many Days

So many times have I sat at the computer and there will be words and the teacher is saying the homework and I will just sit there and scroll threw the words, Because....They start to blur because of the emptiness.
I sit in the back of the class next to the window and look outside and the clouds move and fade away....Because there is nothing that shines in the spring fog.
At lunch my friends will be laughing and hugging me at something stupid prank that I did, But I will only smile and laugh. But its fake. Because I have been worn down.
So Many Days that I have been yelled at. Not to be the prankster or the jester...But its me.
So many days. After this I wont be the same.

Falling apart

I don't know what I did to agree to this,
Its only so long till I fall a apart like everyone else has. But I can't continue without your faithful foot steps behind me.

Living For Your Mistakes.

Life was built of the back and arms of the people that were alive.
I don't want another problem.
Someone is at the door.
Don't bother. I don't have the time to listen while I'm alive.
I don't want to be here.
I feel like I am looking threw someone Else's eyes and seeing what they should see.
Like the people on the sides of the highway, Haunched over and hair gray like the storm clouds, as they move in a herd but some how vanish before you can fully see them.
I don't want to live, Only to become a Mistake.

Im Losing it.

I can't move.
I can't think.
I can't do anything.
All I can do is look.
I keep looking, Looking, Looking.
I can't keep looking.
Its all a jumbled mess, Everything is blurry.
I don't wanna think move or look i can't I've lost it...
I can't get a good enough grip on life...
I can't hold onto the edge of the table.
I'm just to scared to look at you once more. I don't think I could take hearing your voice saying my name.
I would melt away again, But i wouldn't know what to say.
I figured out what the two year anniversary was...Its was his "Death"....

Mary Love.

Mary Love was a girl and she was imaginary.
She only belonged to me but she was always sad.
She would scream,cry and cut.
She never knew what love was.
But her name was Mary Love, How could she not know what love was?
Mary Love. I always cared for you. I tried to make you happy and I had made you a companion, You were obsessed but he left you and you ended it so you sit here in my hands and cry your little fragile eyes as he waves good bye to you over and over.
I only wish I could help you. But Mary Love. You wont let me?

I can't

I cant erase the pain.
I cant do anything to make up for what I did.
But all I know, is I was hurting more then you ever could of.
I have lost the blood, I have felt that emptiness. I have lost to lives of the ones I had loved. But I'm here now. I just wish You'd beat me to a pulp and I could maybe forgive myself.
I'm here now because I have been wandering around looking for you.
I can't do anything but I can wish I had done something.

I'll Always Hold You Close.

There are things I'll never say to you.
But I'll always hold you close.
Things aren't always perfect but I'll find a way to make them Perfect.
In my current state, I feel alone , because I cant escape and I cannot fly as far.
But I still have you. Nothing could be better.

Talk

He dosen't like to talk to me,
I scared him off again
But he'll be back, he'll be crawling to me.
Like always.

Back

I got my voice back.
But as weak as I am I can only whisper but when I whisper it squeaks.
I almost forgot how to laugh and even talk. But its not my fault.

The Place I Wanna Be.

I want to be in a town filled to the bucket with rain and fog.
Where the sun doesn't even exist and where the snow doesn't belong.
Where everyone walks without a bounce in there step. Where they see the rain and shrug and walk on. I want to be in the place where everyone doesn't have a say and me and my doves can live freely with out the remarks of me being insane.

The Fog

There is fog today.
Today I feel like everything isn't mine.
It's someone Else's.
Nothing fits me.
Even when I day dream there's nothing to dream.
The empty skylines greet me with the cold.
Curling up in a blanket and ice cream.
Today I'd rather watch the cars and clouds move instead of that thing called the cable box.
I feel like a helpless child in the middle of no where.
The fog is nice today.
The rain is still pouring down on my helpless dove feathers that wont join me for tea.

Don't Forget Me.

She is going.
She said
"Sorry Little one, Mummy is giving up on life."
She Hugged me and cried all I ever knew was.
Leaving me. Possibly forgetting me.
"Don't forget me..." I whispered as she walked away.

Sun

She will be back,
Its only cloud now.
No Sun.

Sick

My throat hurts so much, I cant even talk without wincing in pain.
The rash is back, My hands hurt and itch even typing is a pain.
All I can do is sit here and try to get better.
The clouds move in an oddly fashion along with the cars in some what of a straight line.
The cats meow scares me..
The sound of footsteps that aren't from anyone home terrifies me.
Everything seems so loud or too quiet.
Everything wobbles to and fro.
The walls hearts are beating in my ears the floors are to high the celling is to low.
Nothing fits. Nothing is heard. Nothing is home.
As I sit and watch from my window abyss , Life seems to roll on by, without me.
I'm fading away silently becoming the walls. What effort to hold on. Do I even exist?

A while ago

A while ago I would have said, "I hate men, they are no use to me, they only cause me pain."
But now. I cant help but see them differently , Like they have a heart to care.
When I walk into school I kept my head down, But now I have them to look to.
They yell at me to sit with them at lunch as all the other girls look at me in digust. What? Cant I have friends that are boys?
When they heard I had someone, They freaked and said "If he hurts you, I'll kill him."
But I only laughed and said, "No need, He would never hurt me,"
But that was back then. Only if they knew he had only used me.
They found out, And they had beaten him to a pulp.
Now they don't leave my side after what he did.
But now I can't even look at a boy and not tear up.

Find or Found?

I always have a feeling of someone looking for me..But they had found me but they lose me every time. As I walk along with friends and family I never fit but I go along, With my fair complexion and my bright green eyes and ruby lips. I cling to someone so I obey the stubborn gravity as my mind is racing with thoughts and words only to make feel me more different. To shy to look up and find or to be found.
Its called being handled or..taken away. Everyone goes but when they come back they end up like me.
Even when I'm alone I look and feel so different from everyone...like they find somethings funny when I sit there and try to smile,But I know they see I don't belong but hold my hands just so I don't disappear again.
When I lay in my bed to sick to do anything. I stare off into space and wonder why I don't fit. But when you appeared at my side . I was to weak to even hold your hands, I tried to get up but my legs gave out. I seemed to weak in your arms. But you held me ever so strong, As you kissed the top of my head you whispered.
"I have found you..."
That's when I looked up. You were my missing piece , And why I never fit in with anyone, Cause I never had you at my side.
I never needed to find anything. You found me first.

Walking Across The Street

Last night I wanted more from you.
But I looked into your eyes and all they said was "Never."
As I ran threw the streets feeling rejected and hurt, Memories of you and me rolled like a movie film in the theaters and all I could do was watch you.
Your Smile.
Your Warm Hugs.
Your Inviting Eyes.
Your Kisses After Everything.
The last image was.
You standing in the rain watching across the street and as I ran to you with your arms wide open and your eyes inviting me and your warm hug was much needed as you would smile and kiss me. But the car got me first.

Broken Glass

Life was the abyss.
All I did was drift.
All they said were mumbles of pain.
Abyss was the life.
He lingers by the door frame near last nights fun.
His eyes show the pain of the glass and it reflects on everything that was good.
She lingers by the window near last nights pain.
Her eyes filled with tears that shine in the moonlight.
As he steps towards the window to stop her.
When she looks back all she sees is him.
As he reaches his hand for her she jumps out the window.
Falling threw air, Falling threw the broken glass.
Leaving what life she had left.
He looks down from the window all he sees was her the one that was his and he was hers. Many years go by many winters pass. He sits there in door frame looking at the window where last nights fun...never was. He shuffles his feet in the broken glass and thrusts into his head. Life was a heartache, and she had to take the easy way out.

Moderation.

Whats life worth living if the one I love leaves me for his studies?
When all the vantage points to seeking happiness is gone....
Sometimes I'm so lost in thought I only watch peoples faces even when there suppose to be moving they stand still an have there mouths wide open and there mouths are open and drool lingers at the edges where there suppose to be smiling.
As cuddly as I get I can never hold onto you long enough.
When I woke up all my dreams had left and the holes had taken me back.
When life is to be lived and pain to be seeked out I will plunged into the watery abyss and take a gulp or sea air and begin my migration to the north where all the fun happens, because We all know "What Happens In Vegas, Stays In Vegas."
Times have changed my friends. Life is all over the media but there not living they are just floating while we sit back and watch the empty people drift away from my grasp.
When I hold you close the sun comes back to my eyes.
When your gone the sun is gone.
Media, Its all about there problems.

Can They See Me Now?

My head hurts because I have my thoughts so tightly held.
I hold onto you closer then before as I look up from where I sit, Everyone looks at me.
Can they see how lost I am? Or can they see the pain?

Afloat

Some thing always catches me afloat and alone.
I'm alone again without you sight isn't as important
Math is a hum
I'm a mess.
Your perfection.

Mind Bind.

My mind is in a bind as my body curls my mind uncurls around you.
Tick-Tock Click-Clock goes my thoughts my life is unwavering to you.
Only whispering lies.

Alone

When I'm alone,I become a shy little thing, I become someone that's not me.
When I'm with you, I'm always true.
When I'm true, You smile.
When I'm alone I can never stop thinking of you. Your the bright side of the moon and I`m the dark side.
Because I'll never hurt you by telling you how I feel when I'm down.
There's always a struggle to obtain you.
The coals in the stove always seem to hurt more then being without you. Because I never knew what alone was until I leave your arms at night.
As we dance threw the night I realize I could of had you along time ago.

Swans Love.

Your so Divine I cant do anything against it.
In my dark corner I weep but you come shining like the sun and take my hand all so gentle and shove me into the light were all the ones I love are.
But your not there. Your never where I need you to be.
As I sulk back to my dark and shaded corner . Not knowing if you`d ever come back to me.
We are two different people and theres something about that lifts me from the dark and into your arms every time.
I cant get over how perfect you are.
Your my sun to my lonely planet where I rule with an iron fist.
You sat there and pleaded me into not killing the ones that had teased me.
There I sat gazing at you when you napped.
But theres always something about how the swans fly and leaves, it always bothers me when you leave. I see your distant shadow leave and I know your not coming back for me this time..
My swans leave me to love nothing but the memories of you.

The Mirror

All night long she stares in the mirror,
All night long she wishes love wasn't just a lie,
All night long she dreams of her own fairytale,
Where her father wouldnt beat her, where her mother wouldnt drink, Where her brother wouldnt touch her,
All night long she wishes she could be free.
Only the mirror knows her secrets, because, she lives in the mirror now...
The mirror has taken her to safety but only has brought her more pain.
She can hear her mothers cries and her father beating her brother,
All night long she wishes she didn't leave them, because they had some good times..
Before all of this.

To Night.

To night, Don`t leave me, because I don't want to cry, for this night is the night of his last birthday, the day he left me,
To night, I need to fall asleep in your arms so I don't fall asleep alone,
I have been looking for a friend and he has fallen asleep, and left me,
Don't leave me, Because you scare the tears away,
I don't want to be alone, For to night is when all the pain crashes down..
Don't leave me....to night.

I know how to hurt you.

I know what makes you tick,
I know what makes you fall,
I know what makes you weep,
But I`ll never say those words to you.
Because I need you now more then ever.
I Know what makes you smile,
I know what makes you laugh,
I know what makes you love me.
But I`ll Always say those to you.
Because your the only one to me.

Love Birds

Love, Love, Love that's all I can give you..
Love, Love,Love I will never let you go..
Love, Love,Love your so mine..
Love, Love, Love...such a simple word but it means all to much...
Love Love Love birds.
That's what we are.
We`ll sit on a branch and just chirp about love love love...

Capture the figures

There is music,
But the figures of my life,
Don`t move to the beat,
The ceilings stretch forever and capture me in my deep thoughts of what to say next for you to enjoy..
Life is just another pebble to the mountain
Frogs chirp their hymns while we suffer from the bore...
Only if they could sing my song..
Now we sit. Now we eat. Now we sleep.Now we begin with life.
Nothing is ever the same.
First impression you can never shake off.
It doesn't matter what I say or I do...
I`ll never be able to capture your hearts.

Remarks.

No longer will I stand up to your remarks...
I'm breaking down once again...
I cant stand this growing pain...
No longer will I be your friend.
Just let me go..Before I lose it.

Fragments.

Now that I know so many words I can scorn you with them...
Even as the Morin dawns many of us begin our journey south to the warm and away from the crowd..
I`ll be there around seven.
I`ll count the seconds...
I`ll miss you more...
But I`ll always love the shoreline in the fog as it whips my hair around and covers me in its wake...
The redwoods have little raindrops lets from the angels crying over head..
The waves are always in a rush to hold onto the sand...
Life is such an odd beauty...
Its so destructive but stunning..
I`ll always be your little dancer because You always know how to hold me close...
I only thought I could hold you for awhile but your not letting go now are you?
Only simple thoughts...I`ll always be your little one..

Where I`ll be

You will always find me where the waves are too loud for my music to wash out the waves.
When the music up and the weather is warm and the tide is in...
You`ll find me there.

Emmy.

Oh, I`ll never understand her and her obsessions. But at least I`ll be with her along the way..
La La La La La
Oh I`ll never get how she moves
Around each bump and each curve gracefully, but never alike the rest
Always making a mess of things and fixing them in a snap.
La La La La..
No One Saw Her Coming...
Shes the new show in town...
La La La La
Oh, I`ll never understand how she ticks and how she works...
Oh she`ll never be the girl to wear the dresses,
Oh she`ll be the Emmy.

Hide And Seek

I see your shadow lingering around the corners...
I know you follow me everywhere just so you know Im safe...
I glance back at you...but you always dissaper before I can say...
Hide And Seek..
Your shoes lack the sound...
Your hands lack my hands to fill.
I only wanna dissaper with you..
Hide And Seek...
Will let me play hide and go seek with you this time?

Fools Game

The screams have driven me..Mad..
I feel like such a fool with rocks stuffed in my pockets till they cant fit..
I feel like such...such...a clinger...
Its a fools game...I keep telling myself that I'm not so I wont fade into the back round again...
Everyone tells me I`m the hopeless romantic..
But that's not me...I get caught up in other peoples romances..
And always forget about the one I love...
But never will I fall in love with them...
Because its a fools game I play..
And you play it with me..

Red

Its all red when i look up...
Your face is flushed Just cause I had just kissed you..
Your nose is red just cause the winter winds were nibbling' at your nose..
Your eyes are red because she had just left you...
To me all the walls are red and screaming...
In each nightmare...its only covered in red...
In each nightmare...each night you say "Sweet dreams" But I don't dream...
You say you`ll come and rescue me from these awful nightmare.....
Everything is red...Everything has always been red for me..
Its a Horrid color to begin with.

Oh I should of Listened,

Oh I should of heeded your pleas...
I should have become a better woman for you...
But I missed Oh so much..
But you Oh to far for my cries to hear.
Oh deary Its all over.
War filled tears..
Eyes filled with love..
Hands filled with water..
Ears filled with lies...
Brains hunger...
Oh I should Listened...
And lets just stay friends..

Everything Is Him.

Everyone has a favorite...but I only have an obession...
Every thought is him
Every smile is him
Every breath
Every word is him
Everyone has an obession...
But I have...him.

My Wind Boy.

My lover is as busy as the sun. Always bringing light to everyone...
My boy is as distant as the wind..always going but comes back to me...
My smile is his...always when I`m with him...
My everything was him, but to have someone be your everything....They only take it away and leave you with nothing...
My wind boy...Your always distant but your only mine for now...

Something Dark

There`s something awaiting in the shadows for me...
Waiting till my walls fall...
When I`m at my weakest...
It always staring at me when I walk to the school and sleep in my room...
It dosent like it...
He see`s things and says "The end is near and there`s nothing left for us.."
But very quietly...Whispers..."There is time for greed and time for pain but now is not the time to panic...When all hope is lost...It will be back.."
Something dark...

I could of said...

There`s somethings I wished I had said to you..but I couldnt even say something without crying over you...
I could have said so many things but no...
I never did.

Same Old Tune.

You can always listen to different music...But you`re always gonna go to that orginal band that caught your ear and always rings the bell..

Far Away.

When I see people walking down the streets holding hands...
I reach for your hand, But when I realize...
Your so far away...
When I`m feeling sad and all alone..
I wanna ride my bike to your house and just forget everything....
Your so far away...
But I`m not done loving you....
And I never will be alone, because in my mind you sit there besides me..
But at dinner I always look at the lonely empty seat where you would sit..
I would put my hand under the table to hold your hand...
Your so far away...but I will always love you.

I could be wrong.

I could be mean and ignore you for days at a time.
I can say the right words to break your heart.
But I wont,
But I could be wrong. Who knows?
I could have kissed your lips more and savored every little thing.
I could fall asleep in your arms every night.
But, I'm right this time.
Because I could be wrong.

Sugar and Spices But Nothing Nice.

Add a little dash of fake lashes...fix your hair just right.
Add those little tears, tremble that lip...
We know your just a fake, You say your in love....Your just getting what you want..
Attention..
Everyone hates you. We all talk behind your back.
We all know that your not nice...
Your just...A fake.
Get a grip.
Add a heart, friends,smarts...
And you have a girl.

Holding Onto,

During those harsh winter nights, He would hold me to him and sob about the kids at school.
All those nights where he would throw his life away behind my back,
All those times he said he`d be back, but he left for weeks at a time.
All those red scarfs I made you, just so you wouldn't miss me when you were gone...
But did you leave to remember you by? All I remember is your hands holding me, your tears on my sweater, the way you smiled...The way you held me up when I was young...
But now, I closed myself off, because I cant hold onto you anymore, I found all those red scarfs under your side of the bed...with someone Else's clothes...
I still wonder if everything you said was true...but I'm not so young and careless, because you should have held onto me like before.

Tea Cups.

He thinks life is hard, She thinks life is about living.
He wants to get lost in a tea cup, No crying over spilled milk, but what can you do when its gone?
She knows he wants to disappear but how can I let him go so he can disappear?
They both want to end and begin, but they wont confront their fears.
Cobblestones and teacups nothing in common but have the same idea`s.

Days.

In these past few days, I dont have many words to say anymore, So I don`t know if I`m going to contuine....In these past few days I have found, Somethings wont stay the same....To me change is fine...But this change..Is no good.

Grace,

Theres No use getting over your beauty and your kisses because every time you kiss me, My world starts spinning, I wish I could hold you closer but I don't want you thinking I`m clinging.
I just cant get over how perfect and loyal you are,
Most men would ditch me for some other pretty girl, But you`ll stay by my side and kiss until I cant see straight...Because I love all to much, Me next to you, I look tiny and weak, but you look strong and buff.
And I feel so protected with you. With your grace, I fee so complete.

This Love Just...Hurts.

How could you say that I never have loved you?
Because I did love you, I have loved you. I am loving you.
And I could never get over you.
All those words state the past but now is present and future....
And no one misses cupid...But I always miss you.
Your like a gift...everyday.
But your more to me then anyone else...
And how can you say this love just hurts?
Because I`m trying. To make things better.

This World Just Hurts.

You cant blame me, Because I just cant think right when I`m so upset with life.
All the fakes, All the lies, All the...bad people...all the stuff that I`m still scared of. Every night I stay up late and write because this is my impute on life.
I'm just such a Coward that I have to write when I may have the wits and the nerve to tell the media enough. Every Night someone is hurt, someone is killed, someone is raped, some one cries them self to sleep, someone doesn't have that certain one, someone has the same idea`s as me, but doesn't care, Someone sit there reading this and thinking...Shes just nuts, Shes just wants attention...I DON'T!...I want all of you to wake up and feel the way I feel because I'm only one girl in love, with a dream, but I don't have the voice.

A Color.

I`ev never had a favorite color.
Because there enough colors for me to live with.
The rainbow just holds the pure colors...
What about the other ones?
Maybe the ones that have hurt other people. Maybe even killed a few...
What about the ones just searching for their Soul Mate?
Because I'm confused, Maybe Just cause I'm a teen in love...means I don't understand old folks. But I know That You Must Treat Everyone With Respect.
Or am I to young to decide what I should think and what I shouldn't think?
Because I think that most of you, Are FAKES.
Everyone tells me to stop acting like a child...But NO! I`m gonna be me...I`m gonna be my color.

Joy

I find Pure Joy just bringing a smile to someones lost expression.
Seeing that glow in thier eyes...Its somthing I crave..
Somtimes I feel like the Sun sheding light, But then Sometimes I feel like the little rain clouds...because I just cant find my place along with the tea cups and roses.
When I feel like I was gonna stop spreading happiness, Something craved again, and I bottled up my emotions just so he`d never know. Because he made me feel like a little rain cloud lost in the tea cups and roses.
But I still craved smiles and happiness...Along with Pure Joy...
I dont wanna be that little rain cloud...
So Im gonna be A star called Joy.

Last Dance

Last Night was the night for romance.
Its the last dance so hold me tight.
Because I dont think I`ll be coming back for you.
Last dance was the time for minds to filled and cluttered with illusions..
Last Dance means.
Last Dance With Me.

Art

Life After Death
Life After Death.
This Is Art
This Is Art.
Never Wanted This,
All It Was A Dance With Her.
Never Wanted To See It.
Life After Death
Life After Death.
This Is Art
This Is Art.

Cruel

As I sit here biting my nails wondering if he`d never loved me,
But he would never be so cruel to me,
Because I could never get over him, Everyone says I`m so needy,And I know I`m needy....but dose he?
Because I don't wanna be that girl.
Its annoying..
I'm wondering if he could ever just leave me...
I know he would never.

Lovely Crowd.

In every crowd their is girl looking for that special boy.
In her search their is a boy just waving her down....
That night I fought back so many tears..
When I saw him dancing with her...
It felt, empty..
And I don't get it, I already have the one...but him dancing with her...
was heart breaking.

Insecure.

If every first kiss was accounted for...
And every love was taking a toll,
With every kiss I feel so unsure...
With every laugh, I feel so distant..
What do I mean to you?
Because I feel so insecure...
Tell me I`m wrong before I hurt myself more.
I`Ev been stressing out because I'm so insecure...
But I know you love me...

Rebels.

If curiosity killed the cat,
What would be wrong to let curiosity into the hands of the young?
While we press the unknown to the known?
Respect your elders..
While we shove away the new minds....
If the cat can why cant the young ones while they sit in front to the computers all day and rot...
Shoving away knowledge and sticking to the old rules which make no sense.
Ignore all their protests and let them live.

Fairytale life.

As I stare out my window I can see the dragon flying over head, Looking down I can see the ground. Sighing and wishing for the ground.
As I sulk back to my bed and lie just waiting to be saved like the others who were saved from their Fairytale life.

Winter Winds

Its time to bust out those hats and mittens along with the boots , Because its time to forget about the summer sun and the spring rain and fall leaves, Because it is the winter, With the harsh wind and lonely snow.

Serious.

Its kind of a serious relationship. But just thinking of him, I get all giddy.
When hes near, I feel like a child, but when he kisses me, Its a whole new world...
It seems like everything is fine...Even the distance cant, separate us for long.
Its just the beginning.
They say there`s so many fish in the sea, But I found his line and I'm not letting go.
I just cant seem to let him go for a minute.
It just a serious relationship, one that makes me feel like a child.

I Got Nothing.

I have nothing, I gave all I can, But I still want to give.
He just epmty`s me, I just love him all to much,
I feel like a town with a drought.
I just feel like I need to give more, Love just doesn't seem to be enough.

Window.

As I hear my name at my window I run to my window to see my prince.
But no prince.
But lie their in the bed and wait and wait till beauty fades.
Light disappears.
Everyone turns to dust.
But I still wait for my prince.
Because my name was at my window.

Light Rain.

Tonight is the night for them.
The rain quietly erases. their steps into the bush.
The girls all cry.
The rest have left.
No footsteps.
As we lay waiting to be saved.
Something says "Tonight is not the time to sleep, Its time to get rid of your fears and leave like the rest."
Light Rain, Why must you disappear once more?
...We the flowers are welting while the rest...Move on/

Lines

Our smiles fade into the cracked walls,
Blood runs from the sink.
Tears flood from rivers.
Lines slowly tangle our selves in mist.
We become one with pain.
Everything has left...
Even the one who want happiness...
Is this what you wanted?

Smiles.

As our feet dance to the horrid music.
We Smile.
As we become intertwined with love.
As we become monsters to our own love.
We become obsessed with everything the other one dose....
We smile and know that we have danced.
Our futures will never be complete if we just dance the smiles off their faces.

Beauty.

If you are not born with beauty, You shall be given beauty.
Because you are to perfect for my gentle hands to hold you.
Its all just to perfect.
Because he is mine.

Frames

Broken hearts tesslate,

And frame your face with tears,

Because tonite there is no use getting over you.

Becuase your perfect for me, But I dont think its healthy.

And my heart says stay, but my mind is saying GO!

I just cant leave when your this perfect.

Becuase inside this frame, Is my heart.

Theres no use, Because your my perfect Mistake.

Obession.

If you ever had to stuggle for anything...I would give it to in a heartbeat....
When your hands are epmty i would fill them with my little hands, Just so you wouldnt look so alone.
If your eyes were filled with worry and pain, I would close your eyes and tell you stories of love.
If you lips were cold and dead, I`d kiss them to life and warm them with a touch.
If your arms were alone, I`d snuggle into them and listen to your stories.

Paradise.

In Old Folklore They Say Paradise Is Some Where In The Ocean,I guess They Have Never Been In Your Arms Cause Your My Paradise.

A Horrible Mistake.

Just Leave Before You Hurt Me More,
Because You`re Just Clogging Up My Mind.
You Were Just The Greatest Mistake Ever.

Rules.

Theres always a rule..
Like, Dont kiss me like that.
Dont Pity me like that.
Dont treat me like that.
Dont, Just leave.
How many more rules must I have to follow before I just get up and leave you?

Fairytale Love.

I always had to work to get my Romeo....
But this Juliet only did what a girl could do...
Stun him with beauty and brilliance...
And it worked and now Juliet has her Romeo...
I always was called princess, but how can I be called princess?
When I have broken my heart to many times to be called princess...
But I have found my prince charming .
I am the Sun and I have found my Knight and shinning armor...
I was poor, but I have found a love without a price....
And my fairytale Love...is just starting to written, But bits and pieces are missing from the whole.
But the truth may never be brought from the pit.
Because, This Is My Fairytale Love, And I'm Still Writing.

To Him.

Thanks to you. I can finally forget but not forgive The others for making me feel so rotten.

And I have someone who cares and tells me about himself, And all we do is kiss.

And talk about all the rotten things about our past`s.

Justin

Justin, I hope you cry your pretty little hazel eyes.
Cause you should have never let me go.
When your friends told me you were dead.
I thought you really had left me. For two years I was fine.
Until I realized. That you were gone and I was alone.
One night I drew a picture of you sleeping so peacefully in your dirt and maggot filled coffin..
Cause I couldn't live without you.
And I still have that picture and I carry it around so I wont be so weak next time I fall in love.
I hope your feeling bad Cause when I fully realized you left..
I was about to just let go.
But when I found someone else...I thought everything was better until I left hm for you.
I did that to so many guys I was out of control and I wasn't gonna stop.
Cause, I thought I was getting back at you for leaving me.
Until I couldn't do anything to have someone. But now I have someone who keeps me entertained and doesn't bore me and doesn't leave me for weeks at a time because I was out of control.
I hope your crying those lovely eyes of yours...Cause, I never want to see them happy again.

Told

Everyone keeps telling That I need to stop acting like a child,
But how can I stop acting like a child when I never had the time to be a kid?
They say I need to find a job, a lover, But when Im just a kid....
Shouldnt I do it myself?
Becuase your just ruining me more.
Cuz` I know what Im doing.

LongTerm.

I dont want a long term relationship.
Cause im on the go again.
I want a sweet and short Love.
Not a few months or a few years, I want weeks.
I dont want to cling I just want you gone.

Not The Same.

It dosent matter how many groups of people I put myself in,
I`ll never be the same, Cause I know Im more...weak, then the others.
It dosent matter how many friends i have,
I`ll never fit in. Cause I see things differently.
It dosent matter how many smiles and waves i get,
I`ll never be able to express the same feelings
It dosent matter how many times I love..
Cause you dont care anymore.

Valentine.

Now that the day is getting closer..
I have no one to hold closer.
Since I pushed him away..
He throws me away..
As I told him I didn't Love him..
He tells me the same..
How come I'm never happy?
How come hes the only one that's happy?
Who is he to bring me back to the surface?
Who is he to put where I am?
He is mine...
My only Valentine.

Gorefull Love

As I spill my blood and guts and love onto a page just for him

and all he talks about is how he just doesn't want me.

As I cry my eyes out and tell him to come back.

He just looks at me and walks away.

As I yell at him and scream telling him I love him.

He just ingores me and says I need to be alone because Im to much work.

As I run to him and tell him I need him and I depended on his love.

He just pushes me away and hurt me more.

As I spill my blood and guts in front of him..

He just stares.

Mothers Life.

I see how mother always tired to do what was best for me..
But everytime she tried to find happiness...
She always had to be hurt.
Even when she thought she had it good.
She was wrong.
All of her dreams flew away when I was born,
She says im her life.
But would it hurt to know...I dont wanna be her life and her all.
I want to be away from her.
I want to leave this behind and give up and live somewhere dark and raining
without her.

Everyword.

Everyword hurts...
And the ending hurts more then the middle wear he stabs his heart with the words he could have told me his problems....
The word goodbye hurts more everytime...
Goodbye...
Bye..
Bye bye!
It hurts,
Farewell.
It just to formal...
And it hurts all to much.

Suicide?

I dont want him to go.....
This world is too cruel....
I hate this....
He`s gone....
Everyone I hold close always vainsh....
I dont wanna write...
Its to empty....
I dont wanna love...
Im just to weak...

My Abyss

In my abyss you sit there with your hands toward me smiling, I want to run toward you but,
I grab myself and throw me away.
Your Gonna be Mine!
But here...it useless....
I wont let you...
Because I'm weak.
In my abyss...its dark....

Ur No GoOd

What are men good for?
Uh lets say thier my most feared Nightmare...
I dont wanna be left alone tonite.
Because the Boggie man is coming back into my dreams.
Some nights I wish I had a Valentine but
I`ve worked so hard just to be me.
I dont wanna be the lil` dove anymore I wanna be me.
Men are good for pain.
And fears.

Birthday For The Dead.

It is getting close to you birthday Honey,
What would you like?
Oh I forgot!
How about some dirt and maggots?!
Huh?
You Loved That Stupid Gun More Then Me.
You loved that stupid game!
More then me?
Well, You Messed with the wrong Little heart.
I said I`m Sorry.
Why wont you leave me alone?!
Just I wanted to say was...
I love you.

Days Of Revenge

They Say Revenge isn't Healthy ,
Their wrong.
Its away of getting your self back.
How many more days until I get my revenge?
I will make you suffer like I have...
But you keep avoiding my attempts....

Hurts

It Hurts to see you so happy,

When Im still sad and hurt...

Your happy as can be...

When I See walking with her arm in arm...and I sit here on this park bench...

We never held hands...You Never Showed Me Off....

You just said "I love you more"....

But it was all games....

Silly Little Hurting Game... You Played with the Wrong Little Heart....

You Moved Much To Fast For Me, To UnderStand...

Becoming.

Dead poets. Lite the world through the pain.
Lighting the words for the newcomers to pain
Old to new
Life to lite.
Dark the death
Living for the words and thinking of the sorrrow..
Growing old with useless emotions
Becoming new to the pain.

A little torn.

I hope I get to see the moon, I haven't seen her in awhile.

Prisoner to my own Useless Emotions, Secretly crying my way through life.

Living day by day,

Trapped by pain feeling lied to.

When my world is spinning and my life flashes before my eyes, is when I will forgive.

Just Stop

How many times have you said "I love you"?
How many times have you not "loved" me?
"I will never hurt you" You said..
But You knew...It was a lie.
It was just lie...
So..you could be...whatever you wanted...
Just as you lie your head down to rest...
Will you rember those looks when you said "I love you"...
Will you rember those..memories of you hurting me?
Just Stop.
You knew I thought it was love but you thought it was a game.

Away

Some time I wish He`d never come back..

But how many people would I affect if he left?

Shall I have him dissaper without a trace?

Or would that hurt me?

Shall I hurt while hes still smiling?

Away with him..

This is how he wants it.

Away...How....Away...

Such A Hard Price To Pay.

Stage

I wish I was a singer because people would keep me entertained to the max....
But this life brings me nothing then pure sadness....I just wish I could gaze at you without you noticing...Me...Becuase I'm not a singer he doesn't pay attention to me.

So Many Times

So many times have I broke down.. for you..
So many times have I self destruct....Just so You`d love me..
So many times I`d had wished that you were true...
So many times have I wanted to forget everything and tell you everything.
But your a Wall..
To me the most beautiful wall...
One that I have to walk by everyday just to be true to myself...
So Many Times Have I Fallen For Someone Who Just Hurt Me...Beyond Anything Capable.

Last night

I kinda wanted something....

:More:

From you...But you

:Never:

Did give me

:More:

But when I wanted

:More:

From you..

You

:Left:

Me

I just

:Wanted:

Myself

:Back:

But your wavering

:Conviction:

Failed to

:Satisfy:

My Love.

NiteMurr

I wish I was nightmare, Thier quick and painless, just a little scare...

Instead of fear....all the time....With the changes everything is scarier....bolder....more...different......

Boys

Boys just dont understand How we work....
We want someone who is gonna be there for us like a best friend.
Someone who side with them even if were wrong.
Someone to just talk with.
But we always end up with the wrong one.
Im not saying your not for me , but theres something.. that I cant understand....

Hims

Hes like that Icecream That I cant eat enough of, Hes like my reflection.
Hes my cloud on a sunny day,
Hes mine.
Hes the keep of my heart wich he squeezes. Untill we have no more words to say.
I wish I could wrap my arms around him and just stay there.
And live untill time ended with him, hand in hand just us..
But, all men want somthing more.
But to me he seems to love me for me...
Is he true?
saddly i dont know....

Giggles

I have been so out of it, But he brings me Giggles .....He brings me happiness, and to him i give him everything I can, I just don't wanna be tossed again, and because of you I have found my reflection....